My Forever xx

hello beautiful humans. So like finally……..I actually have the time to penned down ma wedding day. so YAY!๐Ÿค— Still contemplating if I wanna squeeze in my thoughts for all the vendors I engaged or should I do a separate post. But lets just do it in 1 post. So beware of the lengthy post.


So many things happened a day before the wedding and on the day itself. But I shall only take in the good memories. ๐Ÿ™†๐Ÿผ

If I remember correctly I woke up at 5AM ๐Ÿ˜ด and made my way to my gfs place. Only to have her sleeping through me knocking her doors down.๐Ÿคฆ๐Ÿผโ€โ™€๏ธ Mind you, my MUA will be reaching at 6.30am. HAHA. Eventually she woke up laaaaa. PHEWWWW!

Din know what to expect so I was nervous. I was so tensed. Kept questioning myself what if I wasn’t skinny enough? or what if my skin isn’t flawless? and all the negative question kept running through my mind. 

Then kak liza came. alhamdulilah she is such a sweetheart. Honestly I will still choose her a million times over if anyone asked me.

Look at how pretty she doll me up. ๐Ÿ˜ I know that every bride will look stunning during the wedding day. But I am lost of words how perfect I look. I wish I could have my hair as it is when they curled it, instead of being in a bun. But I know that since it is my solemnization, they want me to have the classic look.. The make up and hairdo for my first outfit….MAJOR LOVE.๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜

I love all my outfit but the only thing if I could turn back time and undo is…

 I would not wait till the last minute to buy girdle/inner wear. Especially if you are the busty type…if u decide to wear a strapless bra. DO FIND THE RIGHT BRA! It makes a huge difference.! Thought of buying a girdle that is like a body suit with a 3/4 bottom..but they have nothing that I want but all of other sort of things that I did not want is all available. Its either they have a separate piece or they recommend a corset. Corset is definitely a NO. Cos if you opt for a corset it will make you even bustier(if there is such a word,but you get me).. end up just bought a high waist girdle but it kept terlipat-lipat at the side. IDK if you get me but that shit is irritating.

Also I hate how when I stand my dresses all looked too big on me at the tummy area.๐Ÿ˜ฉ But the moment I sit it crumpled up and it just doesn’t look appealing to me. Especially when I see it in pictures. Like I love all the pictures that shows the upper body…and the rest is just mehhhh.๐Ÿ™„

So guess what we were so late. Technically we are not late la ๐Ÿ˜ but the groom and the kadi arrived earlier. The solemnization is at 10AM and we managed to reached at around 9.57AM. My phone were ringing non stop. I think they all thought I decided to ditch my own wedding. HAHA.


here comes the bride๐Ÿ‘ฐ๐Ÿผ

Loved how everybody was complimenting my looks and said I looked different. All that will not be possible if kak liza did not dolled me up. Aby’s also said that I looked stunning๐Ÿ’๐Ÿผ, he said that for all my three outfit my face kept changing. The truth is that the makeup is the same. Only the hairdo and lipstick that was different.

Alhamdulilah. We are officially husband and wife๐Ÿ‘ธ๐Ÿผ๐Ÿคด๐Ÿฝ. So I will upload a few of the shots with my first outfit


So this are the newlywed happy faces ah guys. huhu

So next will be the second outfit. My favorite dress among the other two.


Not forgetting my aby also! So good looking๐Ÿ˜! Love all the pictures that were captured when I am in this dress.

Lastly itโ€™s our final outfit.

We also had the opportunity to have a mini outdoor photo shoot since time permits.


Time flies when you are having fun. If I were asked would I changed any of the thing about my wedding. My answer will be no. The little hipcups here and there makes it perfect. I was happy that I was positive throughout the whole event. Alhamdulilah every comments that were made be it for the food, decor, our outfit and everything else we all good. I was thankful that the event went smoothly.

So by now after scrolling through my pictures.. We are grateful that we engaged BLISSPHOTOCINEMA as our official photographer. We had the opportunity to have syafique as our photographer. Our families and friends loves how supporting and smiley he is. He is always cheerful and makes everybody around him comfortable. Did not regret engaging them. From the start till the end, it was a breeze communicating and liaising with them. The only thing is that if you are very particular about getting your photos on time… you guys need to be patient. The period of deliverable of the photo that was stated in the receipts differ from the actual time we got hold of our photos…meaning we got it slightly later. But we did not mind about it as we are not in a rush. But yup, if you mind..then you guys need to consider about it.

As for my bridal..it is THE WEDDING BROCADE. Initially I wanted katt to be my MUA, but since she is on maternity leave…kak liza was my MUA. Honestly I have no regrets. Kak liza touch makes me look like a goddess. Loves how she tried her very best to make me look perfect. Engaged them during the expo and it was straight forward. It’s just that the communicating part that…hmm ๐Ÿ™„maybe my expectation was much more than what was rendered to me. IDK if I should elaborate more but I guess maybe I am just the unlucky ones๐Ÿ™„ to have to experience it. It is not something that bad but it could be better. The first, as well as the second appointment and the day after the wedding when we are delivering the dresses back could have been much better though. Such as the approach and how we were treated. But I guess the dresses and kak liza somehow makes the whole experience being a TWB bride ๐Ÿ‘ฐ๐Ÿผphenomenal.

Now lets talk about my decor…KR-105.jpg

I was blown away. ๐Ÿ˜ The pictures do no justice. It is gorgeous in the pictures but it is jaw dropping beautiful looking at it live. I was blown away when I walked in during my solemnization. I was stunned looking at how beautiful kak nyta and abg saiful transformed the MPH.

I tell you my dias is damned spacious and it can fit the whole kampung there. No regrets upgrading my decor package. It was worth it.


I love the combination of the colours that kak nyta choose. I only told her I did not like tooo many roses. Love how that there is only white roses and a pink hydrangeas. plus point it is fresh flower!!!


Loves how they covers the ceiling! 


See those sakura flowers! I am so happy I saw those flowers in one of the pictures in kak nyta ipad. Told her I wanted them but only along the entrance to the dias.


I love how they have a mixture of the round and long tables to maximize the usage of the MPH.

My uncle who is a perfectionist was so proud of me for choosing a wonderful vendors. Who turns the MPH so dreamy. So my decor is none other but the wonderful and amazing ANGGUN DECOR. Ranting about this makes me miss kak nyta, she so gerek la ok. Cannot stress on that! lovelove talking to her.

Next would be our kompang group AKRAB


Just looked at how happy I was! enjoyed their performance, despite that there is only 7 of them, they still managed to give their very best. Teared while they sang hasbi rabbi. My favorite part! Cant wait to see the video tho. Hopefully there is a snippet of it.

Beside that the caterer was a contact that aby had. The food was amazing. There wasn’t any wastage. Everything was enough till the end of the event. Guest kept coming till the last hour. Alhamdulilah we did not even have any door gift left. Mother have to send someone to buy additional chocolate cos our doorgift is barely enough. So thankful for everyone that who makes the whole wedding a success.


Me and aby wants to thank our families for their presence and for supporting every decision that we made. I am so thankful and aby’s families loves me and accepted me. They are all such a angel and I will always be thankful to allah swt for blessing me with a good in laws. For an amazing husband as well.

Apart from that thank you to my dearest girlfriends and husband as well as kids. For being there for me every step of the way.


love you girls so much!


To those who makes an effort to come and celebrate our big day… thank you. It means so much to us. You know who you are.!!



Till then. Have us in your prayers always my dear friends.

May I and aby be content and grateful always.

May we storm through the bad days and emerged stronger.

May we strive hard to be a pious human being so that we can earn a place in paradise.

Lastly may all our loves ones also be blessed with all the good things in life and the life after.


xx Ryn



1st & 2nd HDB interview

*This post is way back dated but it was saved under my draft. I was just being ryn. Fickle minded as ever. At one point I am just lazy to even updated with anything as there is just so much going on. I can barely breath with being a wifey and settling in with my in laws. With added responsibilities at work. Also with my 2B practical, which is so therapeutic for me as a stress reliever and at times boost my adrenaline rush. I can bet you aby’s will roll his eyes. Kid you not. hehe

But again, when this post is publish. It means we have the key and in the process of renovating it or done renovation and in the midst of moving in… or we could have settle in our homie maybe.

I just wanna look back someday and reminisce all of the bittersweet moment. honestly all of this is hard work yaw.

So I will briefly explained our journey

Our first try was May 2016 BFS in woodlands but since our queue numbry exceeded the number of unit offer, we knew deep down we stand no chance la kan, Its woodland la guyss. malay quota also ciput jee. ;[ciput means verrrrrryyyy little]So guess what, We were informed that malay quota exceeded. No more units left.

So we applied for August 2016 BTO exercise at sembawang.

Cerita die gini, I wanted the CCK BTO but malay quota also damn ciput already. So I told aby that we just have to choose other location even though we wanted somewhere near our parents. SO that is why we decided to go for sembawang.

Why sembawang?

  1. We both are not keen for any houses anywhere in the mature area or east side.
  2. CCK and WLDS malay quota ciput. So memang tak la kan.
  3. Bukit Batok?

Since we both are working at Jurong area, alot says that choosing there will be ideal. But I just find the location of the bukit batok BTO project macam tak swee ah. Da la jauh dari MRT station, the only source of public transport is by bus. Paling benci ah naik bas. Lepas tu for now 1 jeeeeee bus stop. Nanti bile smue da move in, seramai-ramai manusia yang tinggal kat situ…standby la cramped in that one bustop eh.

So that is why sembawang la. Tak kesah la ape orang cakap. Ulu ke ape ke. Janji ryn happy. Canberra MRT will be ready in 2019. So tak la teruk sangat, Kalau bas penuh can still jalan gi MRT station.


So we got our queue number in october, alhamdulilah our number is within the flat being offered. Also the project has a balcony, but downside is that the the BTO completion will be in 2020 if I remember correctly.

Despite having the queue number, we decided to just give November 2016 SBF a try since there is alot of available unit in sembawang. It was a last minute thingy. My itchy finger scroll the BTO sales lauch and realised that day was the last day to submit the application. SInce aby give the green light then we proceed.


So our BTO appointment date was scheduled at a later date in February and we got our SBF queue number in early February. The catch is that

  1. Our SBF number is 397. Within the 887 unit offer. without a doubt we will definitely get a unit easily. Malay quota also not that stingy.
  2. Nearer the date to our BTO appointment, all the unit that is left is level 2 & 3. urgh

So we forgo the BTO appointment and waited for our SBF appointment which is around June 2017. Told aby rather than we wait for 3-4 years for the BTO and choose the lower floor, might as well we took SBF lower floor unit that we can moved in instantly.

I realised that the SBF sembawang unit still has all the upper floor. But the layout memang tak best ah. Patut la banyak unit.

  1. Ade mixed around with 2 room and 3 room.
  2. Then ade yang store room in the living room.

So we don’t really have that much choice. If we defaulted this SBF appointment we will not be able to apply for any BTO/SBF launch for a year and we will be considered 2nd timed. Furthermore its a win win situation. We get to choose a slightly higher floor and we get to moved in immediately. So takya cerewet sangat ah ryn

Narrow down a few units and pray hard we got it.

So first appointment which is exactly 1 month after our wedding


We were so excited and we arrived 2 hours earlier. So nervous and its was legit nerve wrecking. My eyes is liked fixed on the screen, praying hard that our unit is not taken.

So we submitted the form which consist of our payslips. Alhamdulilah we got our 1st choice unit. The staff told us that we have to wait around 3 months for our keys. But we informed her that we are married and why should we wait that long when in the portal it states that our keys is available. Furthermore our HLE is expiring in 3 months and I am not going to go through the hassle reapplying it again. Tsk.

So she took our a form to request for earlier key collection. Payed our 2K and also submit our grant form.

The staff informed us that it will take around 3-4 weeks for the grant to be approved. So at most we will have to await a month for the 2nd appoinment aka the key collections.


Best feeling ever to logged into our HDB portal & saw this



After going through a roller coaster of emotions. This thus far is the best news ever. Imagine applying for NOV 2016 SBF and our first appointment is only in June 2017. At that point of time I am aby’s fiancee and now I am his wifey. 8 long draggy months and so much has happen in between. I cant wait to move in la. Arrrghhh if only money drops from the sky.


So since the appointment is in the morning, we nearly came in late. But all is good.

Signed so many paper.


Another good news is that we are eligible for both AHG & SHG. So it really helps us alot.

Btw for SBF units, usually there is no flooring provided for the living room and all the rooms. So do check with your HDB staff.

We applied for the HDB FOC screeding and was told that it is subjected to approval. So no harm trying. The staff give us a form to apply for the screeding form and they will ask for a reasoning for us requesting for the screeding. So we just say that we wanted to have tile as our flooring. Actually I dont really remember what we wrote at the reasoning column. We just whack je. haha. The staff assist us alot.

So to summarise the whole 2nd appointment

  1. We sign a lot of papers. Do ask them if you have any question. Don’t just sign blindly.
  2. You also will have to buy the fire insurance prior to the appointment. It is best to do it before the appointment but if you are unable to do so, they have a counter there. So come early la. The staff will need the email that will be send to you once you purchase the insurance. All this will be in the letter as well in the portal. So just read what you need to bring along to the 2nd appointment.
  3. They will ask something about the insurance in regards if anything were to happen to your spouse or yourself..the insurance that needs to be paid by our CPF.. something about the home protection scheme…bla bla. I may not be the best person to explained it. SO PLEASE ASK THE STAFF. ย This is for your own good lei. They have a few options though. So be sure what you guys sign for. Me and aby decided to both sign for it.
  4. They will refund the 2K. Not instantly la. They will ask to who should they issue the cheque and they will mailed. So please check your mailbox la.
  5. They will also brief you how much your monthly contribution would be after they deduct the grant and your CPF. If there is any cash output needed monthly. All that they will brief.
  6. You are required to pay the town council fee, in another words the “garbage” fee for your house. Even though you have yet to move in. So be prepared la
  7. You can also switched on your electricity and water supply at level 2, SP counter is there. We just did it online as we will only start the renovation around end of december. But no hassle at all. Just make account online then they will ask to make appointment. Their guy will come down and turn on the supply. So choose a day that you are available.

So drumroll. This is our happy face when we got the keys..


Have faith ryn. I can’t wait to embarked in this new journey. Till then.

xx Ryn



3 August 2017 will be a date to remember. It was the lesson 5 for my class 2B๐Ÿ›ต. I was a wrecked during the lesson. Not that I am emotionally unstable or anything of that sort. 

But I was just purely nervous riding the bike on the real road. I can tell you…girl I was so nervous that I am not able to find any word to match my nervousness. Can even have anxiety attack. So drama eh ryn ๐Ÿคฆ๐Ÿผโ€โ™€๏ธ

But the instructor was super sweet to assure me that he will always have me within his sight and not let me be alone. BUT I AM STILL PARANOID. We are talking about me…riding on the road…with other vehicle k. Kid you not it was pressurizing. Tak tahu ah nak cakap macam mane. Gelabah, risau semua la yang sewaktu dengannye. Tukar gear and all smue berterabuh sia. Semua buat asal boleh je. HAHA. Betulnye hantar nyawa ah ni macam.

Ever since my class 3, I HATE doing U-turn. Now riding a bike and doing U-turn is 10 times way harder. Nearly cried when the instructor kept doing U-turn repeatedly. But thank god I came back in one piece and survive the class till the end. Now I am unsure if I can ever make it through to the next lesson. HAHA. Just hope that with enough practice which I am not sure how many is enough, I could at least make a decent U turn la eh. Wish me luck.


xx Ryn


EID 2017

This year eid ul fitri is different from the previous years. First eid as aby’s wifey at my in laws place. All is good. It is whole new experience for me. Unlike the usual eid preparation and celebration at my parent’s placeImage may contain: 1 person, smiling, motorcycle and outdoor

Kinda bumped that this year ramadhan, I felt that I din give my all. Such a waste๐Ÿ˜ข. But in shaa allah may allah swt let me live through till the next and many more ramadhan. amin.

I am the type of anak dara pemalas who only have a glass of water at pre dawn meal. Cos you know ma beauty sleep is precious.๐Ÿ’๐Ÿผ

Every pre dawn meal, I would make my way to the kitchen with my eyes close, drink a glass of water and head straight to bed after that.๐Ÿคฆ๐Ÿผโ€โ™€๏ธ

But oh wells…. that was all in the past. Now even if I have no desire to wake up….. still have to. Cos I need to be the alarm clock for my beloved husband. Good job Ryn!๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿฟ I religiously woke up for every pre dawn meal except for the last one.. same goes to the husband.duh!๐Ÿ™„

So alhamdulilah for the whole new experience as such. It educate me so much in terms of sabr and appreciation. Missed my family so much more during ramdhan and I wish that I was there at my parent’s place. The first ramadhan away from home makes me realized those times I took the things/people for granted.

Like now whenever I am at my parent’s place, I just feel contented๐Ÿ˜Œwith the slightest thing..such asย sitting at the living room and having my mom in the kitchen cooking a storm. While my dad watching TV and talking about the show, with my sisters in their room on their phone or watching drama. These moments seems nothing back then but now it is the most precious moments that I wish I could have it as and when I want to. I never thought these simple moment which I took granted back then would makes me miss home so badly. ย I don’t know if you get me. But yea.

This year raya is kind of short and simple. It is not as if my previous raya is all vavavoom. But I guess the older you get you settle for more simple stuff. You just yearn for the company of those who are dear to you.

First day

Woke up early as my in laws house was buzzing with visitors by noon. Children and grandchildren came to visit.โ€‹

โ€‹ But me and aby had to leave as we are heading to my parent’s place. So once we reached my parent’s place, all of us proceed to my grandma place. Image may contain: 2 people, people standingImage may contain: 2 people, people smiling, selfie and close-upSadly farris din get to join us on this year raya due to work commitment. After that we went to a few other place and off we go home. ๐Ÿค—Image may contain: 2 people, people smiling, people standing and shoesImage may contain: 3 people, people standing

That is all for my first day.

Second day

Image may contain: 1 person, standing, outdoor and close-upWhich falls on a Monday and its a public holiday since raya is on sunday.

It was a rushing day for me and aby cos all I wanna do is split myself . I wanna be at so many places ย all at the same time.๐Ÿ˜ž

My families wanna see aby and aby’s families wanna meet me. Some of them din manage to meet us as they had to leave due to time constraint.
Image may contain: 3 people, people smiling, people standing and childย By the end of the day I was all sweaty, sticky, cranky and happy. Both of us were in our jubah/abaya which we bought at Dubai. Image may contain: 1 person, standingBest decision ever. So comfy. Can conceal my tummy.


So all is good. Basically that is all for my raya this year.


Oh wait 1 more outing with my high school girlfriend who is just like family to me and we can end this year syawal on a good note. Till then babies.๐ŸŒˆ


xx Ryn


2 Months mark as aby’s wifey

So its been 2 months being aby’s wifey. Yay! Like seriously Ryn… I think its like months since my last post and now I am someone’s wife. But oh wells.. alhamdulilah still adapting with the changes.

I have the most wonderful in laws ever and I am beyond grateful for that. Since I am currently staying with aby’s family..I miss seeing my annoying family faces as and when I want to. But aby have been so supportive and understanding whenever I wanna see my family, he would bring me over.

Exactly 1 month after our wedding we went for our first appointment to select our unit. Alhamdulilah we got the unit that we are eyeing for. Like we can’t be so fussy with what we are given as it is a balance flat exercise. We just have to make do with whatever choices we are offered. By considering the layout of the house and most importantly the cost of the house. So maybe someday I shall penned it down my house journey. & a few days ago which is exactly a month after our first appoinment…our grant got approved so now we are patiently(not) waiting for the 2nd appoinment date. Mega excited for all of this.

Other then that once I received our official wedding photo, I will penned down the most memorable day of my life. That I will remember till the end of time.

Besides that have me in your prayers, that may my marriage with aby last till we meet in paradise. Also may I passed my class 2B by this year. Yay!! 4 more days is aby birthday so in shaa allah till next post.

xx Ryn



So the day for me to pass/mailed my invitation is finally here. I din know it can be so tiring just

Stamping the envelopes

Writing the guest name

Folding the card

Slot in the card into the envelope

Glue and paste the stamp for those invitation that is for mailing.


Tsssk. But is was cute to see momma having her own set of guestlist. Every morning after subuh I will see her seating at her small table in the living room… vetting the guestlist. It is just refreshing to see that side of momma. She always have her walls up and practically in her own world. Which she still is from time to time. But it just warmed my heart that she is equally excited for me.

Also I din know that It can be tiring to meet friend after work. I was literally dying but it was worthwhile. I tried my best but honestly I can’t go on anymore. So SORRYYYYYY!! all the other invitation all needs to be mailed.

So met the poly pockets my DHHM kia, for dinner.

It was a fun catch-up and they celebrated my belated birthday that caught me by suprise.


Thank you babies for the thoughtful cute gift. Time really flies when you have good company. Thankful for all the good wishes. I am so happy that they are also excited to get me married to aby. Can’t wait to see you babies on my wedding day.๐Ÿ˜˜


Next I met my another set of poly pocket. My chinese girlfriends who I adore to death. Look how much we have grown!

2014 vs 2017

Even though it was a short meet up but it means so much to me. I hope you loved you lil gift from me & also thank you for being happy for me & aby.

Thank you for the belated birthday gift my dearest sayang.! I lovelove it! It makes me so happy even by just looking at it.


Till i see you babydolls again at my wedding. ๐Ÿฆ„๐Ÿ’•


Sometimes I am overwhelmed with happiness cos I am surrounded with so many beautiful souls who loves me as I am. It was never easy growing up and getting judged cos of my face. Well naturally I have the resting b*t*h face [RBF]. Till this dat i am being judged cos of my RBF. ๐Ÿ˜”

But all these people makes everything a whole lot better. They are those who truly know me. Who knows me inside out.

Honestly I can be the craziest and the most clingy pampered girl ever. Sometimes my friend literally gave up on me. At times it do affect me a lil tad too much, but most of the time I just don’t care. I am happy with my own little bubble. I have a family who loves me. Aby who adores me. Alot of girfriends and friends who accepted me. Them; who still find and remember me from time to time. For that I am thankful.


xx Ryn


Bangkok w Lil P

A week after my birthday, I went to bangkok w my lil P. ๐Ÿ™„
Meet my annoying youngest sister.

It was kind of impromptu you see.

  1. I don’t enjoyed trips that consist shopping. Went bangkok before and I hate the rush shopping. End up I was completely exhausted everyday and even after the trip.
  2.  I need to save my AL and not to spend unnecessarily.

But I gave up when lil P was persistent wanting me to go and I am glad I went ahead with this trip. I can to spend time with her and also i was once at her age always eager to travel. So lucky her to have an ahem amazing kakak.๐Ÿค—

Long story cut short. Since I am on a tight budget and we only have each other for this trip. Yes its only the 2 of us going bangkok. Aby was not pleased btw. HAHA. I wanted to have a nice hotel that is convenient and cheap. Of course safe for us 2 girls not on some sleazy alley or whatnot. & I stumble upon this hostel.

OMG! That was the best highlight of the trip. A first time for me staying in a dormitory..a mixed dormitory to be exact. Again aby was not that pleased.

But it was awesome you see & that is all that matter. Haha! A video of my awesome bunk!




Their rooftop deck is such a cool place to just hangout.


For this bangkok trip I let lil P decide what she want to do. I will just follow. So we walked like crazy and she shopped like a maniac. Layankan je la ye. Sayang adik nye pasal…Kalau tak layan nanti muke merajok. Malas betul.

To my lil P

I hope you enjoyed the trip. I had fun bonding closer with you for this trip even when you can be such a a**. Like you say this is the last trip I will travel with you before being someone’s wife. You know how much aby and kakak adores you right. Fret not, even when we no longer stay under the same roof..I will always be there for you anytime you need me. When I have my own place you and adik will always welcome to stay. & of course I looked forward making you both my maid to clean the house and care for my kid. Look after mom & adik for me when I away. I know you will be emotional reading this..cos you’re such a crybaby! Boo! So I will make it short la. Study hard and do well in life. I will always support you in whatever you wanna pursue in. Just spread your wings and soar high. I love you P. Ever since you were the small annoying baby who rubbed your disgusting pacifier in my face. 



Till the next trip……

xx Ryn